jealousy

It's not something most people readily admit to...at least it's not something I readily admit to. 

But it's true...I'm a terribly jealous person. I often have to close my eyes, breathe, and remember all the ways the Lord has blessed me.

Lately I'm jealous of people who are DONE with school. I've been in school since I was three years old! That's 20 years of school. I've studied, read books, written papers, memorized formulas, worried over exams. I'm kind of ready to be done with all of this. It's not the learning that I mind. For the most part I love learning. I'm just tired of being obligated to read books and memorize facts. I want to read for fun. I want to learn for fun. I don't want to stay up all night writing papers or studying for tests. ::le sigh::

I know, I know, education is a privilege. Believe me, I'm aware. And I am beyond grateful to live in a country where I am allowed and encouraged to increase my education. I am ever so thankful to be in a school where I am enjoying my classes and professors; it just gets a bit tiresome. Really I've got just about a year and a half to go, I'm sure I'll make it through. :-)