Thoughts on Moving
It's October 1st.
In one month we'll be visiting Denver, looking for a place to live.
In two months we'll be on our way to Miami, to spend time with family and friends for the holidays.
In three months we'll be driving from Miami to Denver, to start our new life.
I've been doing a Bible study on idols with my friend, Kat. It's a great study and I would definitely recommend it. Besides confronting some of the idols in my life I've also found it to be incredibly therapeutic when dealing with our move out west. It's reminded me of all the wonderful reasons we're making this move (despite sometimes feeling hesitant) and helped me to trust in God with all the details as well as the big picture.
Yesterday's lesson in particular talked about the difference between trust and surrender. To paraphrase what the author said and make it more personal to my situation, I feel that I have surrendered to God's will to the best of my ability. The Lord has called us to plant a church in a city where we don't really know anyone (besides our team) and is far away from our family. I am confident that this is God's plan and I will go where ever He leads. But trusting God can be entirely different, though the two can overlap. The author gives the example of Jonah. He finally surrendered to God's desire for him to preach to the Ninevites. But chapter 4 reveals his anger and a "heart issue that remained undetected even in Jonah's obedience."
At the end of the lesson we were told to meditate on Psalm 121 and it was very helpful. "My help comes from the Lord." There's nothing better than that.
And so yes, I still struggle with having to say goodbye to Miami (again) and Raleigh (you've really grown on me) and hello to Denver (though I am excited!), but I am trusting in God to take care of me; physically, emotionally, spiritually.
"I'm not especially fond of goodbyes, but I've found that some are the only path to new hellos."