the six hour stretch
The last two nights Liam has given us a six hour stretch of sleep! Followed by another 3-3.5 hours, followed by another hour and some change. This is amazing because he has never slept so long in his life and the past month has been an absolute nightmare with him sleeping no more than 2-2.5 hours at a time. I can't tell you what a relief it is that he is finally starting to sleep longer at night. I was beginning to lose hope! I'm also thankful that we haven't had to let him cry it out. I can completely understand why some parents choose this method to sleep train their babies and I was getting ready to go down that path but it seems that Liam is starting to "get it." We have been working really hard and trying all kinds of different techniques to help him sleep better at night and it's finally paying off. Again, I can understand why some parents choose to let their kids cry it out but for me, personally, I wanted to avoid this technique if at all possible. If I'm honest it's because I didn't want to do anything to make Liam think he was alone or abandoned. You see, I'm not exactly the most maternal person. Motherhood has not come naturally or easily to me. In the beginning, especially, I had a hard time connecting with Liam and I sometimes wonder if I missed the opportunity for some kind of magical bonding that occurs between mother and baby. Even now, I love Liam, but I sometimes have a hard time being a mom and feel like I need a break. These are my own issues to work through and I'm not sure if Liam ever feels disconnected from me or not, but just in case I didn't want to add to any abandonment issues. Anyway, all that to say that I want Liam to sleep longer at night because he feels safe and knows that if he does cry out I will be there to comfort and soothe him. I didn't want him to sleep longer because he is so tired from crying that he may as well give up and sleep. I just didn't think our relationship could handle that. Other mothers may have a stronger bond with their baby that can survive something like that, but I'm not sure we could.
Thanks to everyone who has been praying for us and offering support and advice. It is much appreciated! Keep praying for us. Here's hoping Liam keeps it up. A