mommy confidence

Ever since I became a mom I have become a lot less confident and a lot more confident all at the same time. It's such a weird place to be in life because from one moment to the next I can go from feeling totally empowered to totally dumbfounded.

Obviously the lack of confidence comes from having no idea what I'm doing with a baby. I've never had any experience with babies prior to having one of my own. A lot of the time I have no clue why he's crying. I must've not read the memo that moms are supposed to be able distinguish between their baby's different cries. They all sound the same to me. I'm not sure how much he's supposed to eat or sleep or play or....anything. I have a better idea now, but in the beginning I was really lost.

Even though I usually have no idea what I'm doing I often have moments where I feel more confident than I ever have in my life. I have confidence in my body...this body sustained a life for nine months, then birthed a baby with no medical interventions, and has now been feeding that baby for eight months. What the what?! Miracle! Also, this baby is alive and healthy and smart and funny. And I'm his main caregiver. There must be some mama instinct in me because this baby is growing and thriving. I also care less what other people think. I mean, I've never been one to dwell on others' opinions of my life but now that I'm a mom, I care even less. All that matters to me is that my baby is safe and happy and that my husband is happy and satisfied in our marriage. And I have confidence that our little family will continue to grow in love and happiness all the days of our lives.

How has being a mom (or dad) changed your confidence?