Did you ever notice that some people are born with this parental instinct? Parenting comes easily and naturally to them. They seem to really enjoy being a parent and don't think much of the sacrifices they've had to make...they're just happy and pretty good at the whole parenting thing. Let me clear the air here and say, this is NOT me. Maybe you already know that or maybe you don't. In the internet world it can be easy to gloss over the difficulties we encounter in parenting. Our instagram feeds are filled with smiling faces, our facebook status updates tell of funny toddler stories, our tweets contain 140 characters of inspirational quotes. Parenting is definitely a beautiful journey and I'm glad for the people who seem to have such an easy time with it. Those moms who are always upbeat or keep getting pregnant over and over again because they just love babies so much. Or the dads who are always having fun with the kids while maintaining their authority. Kudos to them. That's just not me. I've had to work very hard to establish what I have with Liam. Truth be told, we didn't bond right away. I remember days when Alex would come home from work and I would tell him, "Liam hates me," because of the hard day we'd had. On some level I really believed he did hate me! I had no idea how to handle...anything. I was lost and dumb-founded. So I read blogs and articles and I prayed and I asked friends and family for advice. I worked hard...because I loved that little boy so much and I wanted to be the best mom I could be.
I still have days where the last thing I want to do is be a parent...because it doesn't come easily to me and I have to exert a lot of energy...I have to keep reminding myself that I need to be the best mom I can be for these kids, I need to display grace and patience, I need to get off my lazy butt and play with Liam and Isabel. And no, it's not always easy, but it's definitely always worth it.