Lent: An Update
I wrote a couple weeks ago about my quest to give up yelling for Lent. You can read about it here. I wanted to drop in and give a little update on how it's going seeing as we're nearly halfway through Lent.
First of all, I have definitely failed a couple of times. I noticed that the times when I broke down and yelled were during times of high-stress. I'm guilty of not taking regular time for myself, it's my constant struggle as a mom. I feel like I need to take on everything and do it all. And then I end up taking it out on the people I love most.
Last week I really lost it. The baby was being impossible and Alex was working a lot and I had just had enough. And I yelled, I mean I really yelled. And I felt terrible. I took a deep breath, took the kids outside, and played on the front porch until Alex came home from work. We all felt a little better after that. I remembered that when I am weak, God is strong. I will fail...multiple times, but God is there, ready to forgive and pour out His grace. Since then I have made more of an effort to have a daily "quiet time" where I can just sit with my Bible and take notes and pray. I love following along with She Reads Truth. It's such an amazing resource that I am incredibly thankful for.
So even though I have broken my fast a few times, I have noticed a decrease in my yelling. More often I stop to think and breathe before I unleash my wrath. I have also been able to pinpoint the causes behind my yelling so I can make changes. Little by little God is changing my heart. He's breaking down bitterness and increasing patience. I'll leave you with this verse that has been of great comfort to me recently.
How is your Lenten season going?