saying goodbye...

Time is not slowing down. I look at Liam and I'm in awe of the little man that he already is. And he's just going to keep going. He will get taller and smarter with each day that passes. I look at Isabel and I see that her baby days are numbered. She's walking and beginning to say real words. Soon she will be chasing after her big brother and speaking in full sentences. And that's it. We don't plan on having any more children. Believe me when I say I have zero desire to ever have another child ever again. But there's a big part of me that's a little sad to say goodbye to this stage of my life. 

I really enjoyed pregnancy and I even enjoyed giving birth. I mean, don't get me wrong - it wasn't all rainbows and butterflies - but pregnancy and childbirth are downright magical. It's such a special time that you never get back. I feel like it went by so fast, especially for me since my children are so close in age. Sometimes I wonder if I didn't get to truly enjoy it all. Truth be told those years that I was pregnant and caring for me baby babies were tough for me. We were in constant transition and my hormones were going haywire. I feel a lot more settled now and I look back and wish I could do it all again - but not really. It's time to say goodbye and move on to the next stage. This time I'll go in with my eyes wide open and remember to cherish all the beautiful moments and tolerate the not so beautiful moments.