in case you missed it

I started contributing to Mom.me this month and it's been really fun. I've mostly been sharing about my experience with surrogacy. 

I've been thinking about being a gestational carrier for a long time. It started with Phoebe from Friends and the desire grew from there. It's not something I entered into lightly. Alex and I have both given it a lot of thought and prayer. I figure not just anyone has this desire so it must be a God-thing. Alex and I just really seem like the perfect couple to do this journey. 

We're very early in the process. I've been working with an agency and we're looking for a match. It can get nerve-racking thinking about everything that needs to happen to result in a baby. Finding the right match is a very important and intricate process. It can't be just anyone. And once you find the right match there are meds and psych evals and embryo transfers and blood draws. It's a lot. 

We've never struggled with fertility. Getting pregnant has been easy for me. But getting pregnant this time is going to be a process. I feel nervous sometimes that the transfer won't "stick." But this is another opportunity to trust in God. If He wants this to happen, it will happen. I don't need to stress. 

As I said before, this is only the beginning of the process. We have a long journey ahead. I am so excited to see what God will teach us and how our hearts will grow. 

If you want to keep up with my surrogacy in journey be sure to bookmark my Mom.me contributor page. So far I've written about why I want to be a surrogate, how I told my mom the news, and what my husband feels about it all. And by the way, I am so thankful for every single one of you who has shown their support in this decision. It means a lot to me to have a whole team of people standing with us and cheering us on along the way.