I've been noticing a trend in my life lately. I seem to be surrounded by thoughts of freedom. I yearn for freedom. I think about it constantly. Songs about freedom strike a chord with me. And when I spend time with the Lord I keep coming back to this idea of freedom.
I don't like feeling trapped. I doubt anybody does, but I really don't like it. I start getting antsy if I feel like my freedom is being taken from me. I want to be able to move and live and breathe without being held back.
A couple of weeks ago I was telling Alex that I was feeling trapped. I love my life but I want to be sure that I am choosing this life. I don't want to stay in my life out of obligation or guilt, I want to actively choose to live my life the way I am living it each and every single day. I want to delight in this choice and feel free to make any changes I see fit without worrying about what others may think.
I also want to be free of all past mistakes. I have this tendency to go back and relive past hurts. I start thinking about something that happened a year, three years, five years ago...and it's all fresh in my mind. I begin to beat myself up over it. Why? Why did I do that? Why did I say that? How would my life be different had I made a different choice? I have to tell myself to let go, stop obsessing.
I've been participating in a holy yoga class every Monday evening. It's...the best. I've written about holy yoga before. How it feels worshipful and meaningful. How it helps me focus my attention on Jesus. The instructor has a playlist of worship music playing while we get our flow on. One of the songs that always pops up is "I Am Set Free" by All Sons and Daughters. This song really gets to me every time I listen to it. It's a beautiful song that reminds me simply that I am set free. You guys, I am already set free.
All the yearning and worrying I do, it's unnecessary. There is no more guilt, no more shame, no more seeking approval, There is only grace and love and promise and hope and opportunity.
And the reason that I have been set free? It is for freedom. It is for freedom that I am set free. (Galatians 5:1) I need not get bogged down in feelings of regret or worry or the "yoke of slavery." I am to enjoy my freedom in Christ. I am no longer a slave to sin or to the law or people's unsavory opinions about me. I am set free. I am set free to love God and others. I am set free to hope in the future. I am set free to pursue my calling and passions. I am set free to walk with God. I am set free to revel in God's grace and mercy.
It's time to drop those chains that I'm holding on to. They've already been broken by Christ. I'm covered in God's grace. I am set free.